So I have been busy and have no been able to finish GTA4 until last night, I saw both endings and have to say it left me Jaded and unhappy, I felt bad for him in many ways, i wont give anything away but the choice you make is like picking the less of two evils, and made me hate myself just a little bit more.

You see in most games like Metal Gear or Splinter cell or whatever I try to get a low kill count, and by the end of the game I felt like a mass killer with no soul. I mean I remember GS bashing Kane And Lynch for the fact that you could not love the char but in fact it had a purpase to it for the most part, unlike gta where you are killing everyone in sight, now its fun, and i love just shooting stuff but sometimes it just made me sick. I have played gore games and a huge fan of fps so dont get me wrong, but just seems like Gta lost its reasoning at the end of the game, i mean at the start of the game, you didnt really have to kill anyone unless you had to, *spoiler* i mean take a look at the mission where you have to steal the car from the black guy to pay a debt from the housing projects and they want you to sucker punch them, you have three options, shoot them, one hit punch OR just run in and get into the car and drive away without killing them, Niko will comment on the phone that he didnt even have to touch them, that was cool and I thought that would be like that all threw the game, but I was wrong. It was a good game but sadly I'm going to change my rating to a 8.5 frin a 9.5 just for some of its flaws, and Rockstar, man fix that lighting issues man, sometimes I cant even see where im going.

ttyl all hope you like my blog

Well since I have been buying games I thought that i should at least finish them, so for one I have started my goal of replaying all the Final Fantasy's in order again from start to finish, so far im almost done Final Fantasy on the PS, on normal mode, no easy mode for me, and Just a minute ago as I write this finished Assasins Creed, Kinda hollow ending and well not the best game I have played, I thought it would be more fun but after a while just felt like a grind, I know that they were doing this big setup but still, they could have thrown in some drama like the fine lady with desmond in the shower would have been nice cause she is hot lol

as for final fantasy going to be a while cause now im onto GTA4, I played it when I got it, but didnt really try to look or play everything so kinda stopped swo now i guess I will play it for real, on top of that I guess I will be playing some KOTOR and FF CC.

As for the rest well I will have to juggle my real life and try to fit in all the game playing, and I think when im done kotor and kotor 2, i may pick up deus ex again, been a long while since I played that game, after that I may start up system shock 2 that has been sitting on the shelf or vampire bloodlines, not sure yet, then again i have alot of games so it may be 10 years before I finish them all again lol.

hope everyone is doing well, and catch you all on the gaming scene.

i'm happy that my LE MGS4 was just brought to my house! Time to play some snake! I also was shocked to find MGS online in the game also, very sneaky! but thank god multi player is all in ONE GAME!

Hi all

I thought that I would write about what has me down, about a week ago my best friend and I had a fight, a bad one, it had to do with a misunderstanding with his girlfriend and well he took it the wrong way and now we are not friends.

This is a hard thing for me, for one I have known him almost my whole life 15 years or so and he endedor friendship, well not just that that upsets me but he didn't even tell me to my face, in fact he acted more like a coward then anything else why you ask, well because he didn't even have the heart to tell me to my face like a man but he got his 37 year old brother to threaton to beat me up, well this is what happened.

a few days earlier I had talked to his girlfriend who was also a friend of mine about how his mom was very upset with him for not spending time with him, and a buch of other stuff now she is kinda bipolar and will say one thing then tell my friend that she is upset with what I said even thought she told me that she was ok with it, anyway she told him a context that wasnt true and said it in a way that made me look really bad, the conversation with her lasted about a hour and she left most of how we came to the conversation out, anyway I had no clue something was wrong in fact on my way home from work I had dropped by to help him and his brother with their "scrap: copper sorting money idea" as a new way they wanted to make money. everything seemed fine, they went to the junkyard or wherever they go to drop the crap off and I was starting to head home, and I get a call from my friends brother telling me that our friendship is over and to stay the **** away from their family. I asked what brought this one but didn't get any good anwser, I told him that if he had a problem and wanted to end this friendship let him tell me himself, he then went on to threaton me that hes going to beat me up, and asked me where I was, now I could have found him and had him arrested for 264.1 of the canadian C-code byt didn't because I still thought I could work things out, I hung up on him and he then proceeded to call me many times with less then pleasant talk.

After trying to call and txt him asking him what was going on, he never got back to me, so its been a week now with no explaination and people tell me that I don't need friends like that since most come to agree that he is a loser and coward, still not a way I wanted to end a 15 year friendship.

Hi e veryone

I will be away for a week or two, so dont take me off your friends list

when i get back will be sure to post a new blog about something random Im sure lol.

talk to you all soon