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31May 07

Where I've been? As usual, dealing with personal problems. There are some people that won't give a damn, some that might, and some that will. Right now, I don't care either way. I've had family problems, multple deaths in my family, both near and elsewhere, and I've been taking care of my mother over the past week, since she just recently came out of the hospital, due to a severe blood clot she had in her leg that was slowing her blood flow to the point where she couldn't get around easily.

 I've been emotionally distressed, however, because I've been here with her, hearing her cry and whatnot about how my brother isn't any sort of son to her because he hasn't been by, not once, to check on her to see how she was(In real life, for those few people that might immediately have GT_Drag popping to mind--he'd never be so cold, I'm sure.), or about how my sis-in-law initially agreed to go with her to the hospital, but changed her mind about going on a whim when my mom came to get her to go with her. Had my mother's boyfriend not gone with her, she would have been going alone. Why? Because she didn't tell the one person that's been with her all this time, through thick and thin, and is even with her now through all her suffering the date of her surgery, that being me, simply because she "didn't want me to worry". Of course, I worried more, since I found out at the last minute, and I was also hurt because she asked my sis-in-law and my brother,each of which have never been there for her through anything, to go instead of me.

 Now, during her time away, I'm here, alone, with her cell phone, which was already about to run out of minutes, and I had no transportation to boot. On top of that, people kept calling to ask where she was, which ran out the minutes on the phone, so I had no communication either, not counting the computer, and we're the only ones in our immediate family with internet service. Great. No communication, either. I was home alone with absolutely no way whatsoever to find out what hospital my mom has gone to, or to get in touch with anyone that does.

Cut forward to now. From day one since she came home from the hospital, I have been the only one willing to take care of her, doing what I can to make her comfortable. She has trouble moving, yet she insists on doing things such as cleaning, driving, etc...things that she shouldn't be doing, plain and simple, but, like when I told her years ago, many times, that my brother doesn't care about her the same way that she does for him, she doesn't listen, so, of course, she spends most of her time crying or in pain, and that makes that much more time I spend trying to console her or make her feel more comfortable

The time that I DO get to spend online, I spend on Gaia Online. I have a guild there, which is pretty much like a union here, and I haven't been able to keep up with it, either, so I go there only to talk to people there that have been more than willing to be there and try to support me. You know who you are, and I thank youdearly for that support.

So, to those that have been asking about my whereabouts, I'm taking care of other responsibilities right now, and dealing with all sorts of emotional problems on the side, so I likely won't be back anytime soon. I won't apologize for my absence, because I've made it clear that I don't like GameSpot much as it is, and I've also explained just why I've been away, which some people still want to get upset at me about regardless of the fact that I've perfectly valid reasons for being away (again, you know who you are). If anyone wants to talk to me, which at this point, I'd doubt, you can reach me on Gaia Online, if you have an account. I go by the screenname I Kei I there.

As a friend of mine says, peace, til next. 

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