All About MuddVader
Do you ever feel as if you are destined to be engulfed by your own insanity?
I'm sure you know the feeling.
There's always so much on your mind, and it almost always holds you back. It bogs you down and makes some of the simplest things seem like massive tasks.
Everything I could ever want is so simple, yet so impossibly out of reach, its sickening.
Love, A Job, Comfort, Control, Peace of Mind, a semblance of Genuine Happiness, etc.
Every day it feels as if the person I consider my one true friend, is floating on the tides of life, moving ever so swiftly away from me. Leaving me behind.
Unfortunately I also love this person, and my mind is a rock with their name carved deep into its surface. Ive spent the last three years integrating this person into my desired future, only for them to practically not need me anymore while on the other hand I still rather strongly desire/require their existence.
Anger, Sadness, Hate, they are all part of the daily routine that I have fallen into.
An abomination of emotional instability is bound to be all that will remain in the end.