Three signs accompany this sentiment:

1. Your whole body hurst as if you did a thousand hours of excercise.

2. Your ears drums hurt, and pulsate fast around loud noises... which make them hurt even more.

3. When you hear music, even a Rave or techno song sounds like its been made into a ballad. Everyhting slows down so much.

Man I can't believe this. I used to live in a tropical area of this planet filled with Chagras, Malaria/Yellow Fever, Dengue and all sorts of weird diseases, I used to play soccer in the rain to late hours of the night and come home soaked and fall asleep in those cloathes and not one cold... I come to this land and all the sudden I'm getting colds, fevers, stomchae aikes (by the way I could eat expired food before and not get sick)... man I used to think nothing could hurt me and now that I think about it I've never felt so... human . Actually, I used to see people get Chicken Pocks around me and I would just feel a slight ich, and then just be on my way, at times of epidemics, like everybody in my c.lass would miss school for various days and it would be me and maybe another person in the c.lass room. Once my whole school had an epidemic of Chicken Pocks and for a week that school was a ghost town. I just played 21 by myself in the basketball court.

Gotta go lie down and think on how to start and finish my Network final work which is due on Thursday.

SEACREST OUT!!

Hey, well having all that some blogs down passed over... for now, I finally saw the trailer fr Diablo 3. Man that game looks incredibly SICK! I really like Diablo, which is weird to hear a person say, specially a kid. Which reminds me of a little reallife story that was part of the life of your's trully. Sit back and follow me through some reminincense of my early teenage years.

So this dates mid 1999 - mid 2000. It was the summer of love and fear for the end of the world (kinda the same fear for about 2 years until people slowly realised how stupid they were being and all the time they had lost during those 2 years), I was jsut finishing school in 1999 and starting middle school in 2000. I remember it so clearly, because Britney Spears was still popular for her singing and borderline enfatuation of 40 year olds for her to turn 18 already, I had moved to the new site for middle and high school student and their were still no windows in any c.lassroom so from time to time while writing in my notebook I would have to blow of some of the earth dust from it... also I noted some of my female c.lassmate getting swollen in their chest and lower back area, unfortunately my mind nor biology where at a moment to appreciate or really care about those new mutations in their physiology.

So around those times, I had computer c.lasses. We learned about MS Office, Windows 95 (yeah we still used that one in 2000 ) and thats about it. So my c.lasses where imparted to my c.lassmates and I by good computer teacher, which also happened to be pastor or minister of some Jesus or Judeo-Christian religion of those. He would also talk to us about how subliminal stuff was put in all over the the world. Apparently Pikachu was diabolic :S .

So on to the game part. I eventually had crossed with PC gaming a year before but didn't take intrest again, until some kids began talking about a game called: xxxcraft (I pretty sure it ended in "craft", but for reasons on beknownst to me I cant remember if it was Star or War)... but I was slim and none in the area of playing it, specially since I didn't even know how to get the game to begin with, I didn't have cash nor friends, just the kids in recess who would talk about it near the cafeteria or at least the window where they sold the food from. So in the end all I had where my memories of playing Prince of Persia and a car game called "Lotus" on Windows 3.0 with a DOS interface (C:\Windows\Lotus...)... that was my favorite, and it was in 3D.

(The bad thing about reading comic books and manga is that you tend to not know how to write a concluding sentence or paragraph... I gotta work on that.)

SEACREST OUT!

P.S. Don't forget to read Reetesh's MGS4 review, a very good read. Just read and kept me intrested while reading it. (No Spoilers)

By the way, just being a prick about it... it's called: "Fusion/Melting" .

I was able to save my multimedia particion from my old HDD. Everything I need is now on my new HDD... everything... but one file. A winrar file, with over 200 photos from my past. I took the time and scanned them, they had everything what little is saved from my childhood and all the way to my trouble teenager years. I kept a hold of them to feel like I had not completly lost it all and had some kind of grip over myself. Trying to remember that I had a family, I was loved, I was hated, I was sad, I was happy, I laughed and I cryed... I was once a normal human being.

I couldn't have erased it... it was always in that partition. Always in plain site of where I could watch over it. Now its gone.

Not illness nor death. Not sadness or despair. Maybe this is a way the heaven or who ever rules this world want to punish me for my lack of submission to it's will.

Maybe... those pictures never existed. Maybe because I never had a childhood and all I remember are clever sewn lies for my own mental health.

Could that thing want to tell me to stop holding on to my past... "when you dig up the past, all you get is dirty". Something it does not want me to see, hear, feel, smell or taste my preterite life. Hmm...

I'll just have to start from Zero... I did it once and I'll do it again.

SEACREST OUT!!

PS. Hoped you liked my cryptic blog.

So here is how it all went in a list of of secuencial events:

•- HDD corrupted.

•- Took it to my network teacher who told me that like for $10 he could retrieve my valuable information and reset the HDD.

•- I said ok.

•- Next day come, he says that the electronic circuit has blown or something like that, either way the HDD is no good no more, he did circuit test and all. He can get me an 80 GB one for $70. He still wants me to pay him for his time.

•- I have 50 available for misc. I agree, to bring the cash. Although I ask if their is nothing a bit chaper. He says no, thats the cheapest he can get it, even assures me of this.

•- I go home and lay on my bed, staring at the ceiling and think what do do. I remember that my written report for July 10th was on the HDD. So basically I think, and I quote: "****!!!"

•- My grandma comes, and tells me that she can put those extra bucks for me. I thinks: "Cool! Thanks".

•- My grandma advices me: "You should still check prices because he could be overcharging... people are like that around here... not everybody is honest..." I think to myself that he is my teacher and he wouldn't try to screw me over... *MENTAL FLASHBACK SNAP!* Oh all my memories of people trying to screw me over (and not in the fun way) came to mind, something was wrong. The way that teacher smiles and looks weird when he is trying to convince of something... was the same look he gave me when telling me about the HDD.

•- I go to this place called: Wilson, imagine over 10 city blocks just filled with computer stuff and computer related stuff.... WHATEVER!

•- Go to a store in like a mini mall called: Compu Plaza, checked out IDE 80 GB HDD. What did I discover? Price range for an IDE 80 GB HDD?... $52 - $57. If you put $10 more bucks they'll give you a 160 GB HDD.

•- Taughts going through my head at that moment: "I'm gonna rip your ****ing head off you fat ************."

•- I buy the 160 HDD and go home, reboot, install bootleg Windows, Kaspersky AV... check email.

•- Got an email back from a very very very good frined of mine who I studied with but dropped out for some months for some reason but I'll see him again in August.in school, I wrote to him previously all this, asking him for his advice since he has alot more years and a degree as a Hardware Technician.

•- He tells me that I should try to boot the PC from my Windows CDRom, and see from the install menu if I can save the particion where my Windows was and the other HDD particion where all my multimedia was.

•- I tried it out. Couldn't save the particion with my Windows installed on it, but I was able save the one with all my precious multimedia on it. Also discovered something else, I could reinstall Windows XP on it. I did so and I'm writing this blog from the unfixable 80 GB HDD.

•- So lets recap. This piece of **** for a teacher wanted to rip me off. Made me spend my misc. money I had for a new motherboard (FYI) or a Core2Duo processor. Lied to me about something he probably just glanced at and was expecting me to spend the cash on what ever HDD he wanted to sell me.

•- What am I think now? How much is the industrial glue sold at my corner hardware store... you know the one I'm gonna use when I paste his nuts to the back of his throat.

Okay guys, sorry if some stuff I'm writing seems a bit over the top and rude. So I apologize for that. Either way, I'm gonna have to get some retribution. No yet, cause I still have some c.lasses with this a-hole and have to think more coldly, cause I don't want to risk some thing cool I got last week that is gonna help me out for the coming months. But my vacations start third week of July.

Well, for now I'm gonna see the glass half full. I got the slave drive I was planning for a near future. Just need to get another flat cable and set the 160 HDD as a slave drive on my PC. Either ways, I'm gonna sell the PC with the 80 GB HDD, and all it has... its a very good PC, but I have tons of more programming and designing to do and this PC, because of the career thing, isn't gonna hold down these tasks for much longer. So better start new. Get a SATA/Core2Duo Motherboard and HDD (which are cheaper then IDE HDD... new tech I guess). Maybe 2 GB RAM with future 4 GB RAM expandability, to be ready when Vista is ready and not so glitchful. Maybe another HDD 160 GB SATA, I'll use this 160 IDE HDD as a slave drive on that one and dedicate Multimedia on it. Get a server PC case, which are taller then average, so I can be future proof if I need to install more HDD on it or a cool Liquid Cooling system on it. Oh and I also saw that a GT8800 Videocard is $107!!! I wanted to faint at that moment.

See... glass half full. Just have to delay some stuff.

Just wanted to let you know some stuff I'm going through right know and also that if their is something I really hate in this world are people who lie (if you don't wanna talk about something just don't talk about it, but don't mislead) and people who steal.

Thats it. Until next time... "Revenge is a dish best served cold" and don't just trust anyone, no matter who he/she may be. Don't worry I won't do anything over the top to hurt this dude seriously... Oh but dont worry it will hurt him quite enough. Also, the I found that these situations are a loop hole in that whole Karma thing, basically I was done a wrong deed with no previous evil deed by my part to deserve it... so I can seek retribution and balance things out... but for the most part I don't really care about Karma that much. Cheers!

SEACREST OUT!!

P.S. I hope cooler head prevail on my part... I'm really antsy for some payback. Maybe time can cool me off some.

Alert!

Harddrive has busted. Need to buy new one and throw some 70 bones at it. Last one had everything I had achieve over almost a year (Music, pictures, etc)... All lost. Tons of stuff!

Oh well, I guess I could rescan the over 250 photos...

Sorry if I'm not active... "You think you know but you have no idea".

"Pray for me, as I walk through the valley of the hood..."

SEACREST OUT!!

*UPDATE* Oh man, I just finished formating my Memory Stick, and saved all my stuff in there... EXCEPT for my PSP game's save files. This really doesn't hurt except for the part that my MGS PO+ saves and characters where there so... one of the worst weeks ever.

I th ink they are trying to go for that Pokemon/mascot representing someting/like the diamond or pearl creatures... feel. Only this time its more AWSOME!! Chaos and Cosmos. You guess which is which.

SEACREST OUT!!