Yes. A Blog commemorating the fifth year I've been here on GS was forthcoming. But I'm not all Bells and whistle and Balloons(yes I know no one says that.), unfortunately. Mostly cause, well I have nothing to blog about, so what you'll be reading(if you are still reading of course) is just some blather that I've managed to strew out from my brain to my fingertips as I type this out on my keyboard...

I use to frequent good ole videogames.com in its heyday, before it became Gamespot back in who the hell knows when. I decided to join 5 years ago, but trust me I've been here for some time before that, just not as a member. Now look at the title...Shouldn't it read "5 years! OMG" or "What a long journey it's been." No. I honestly wish I could go back in time now that I think of it. Why? because I'm sitting in the same spot now, typing this up and back then when I was creating my account on GS...Time wasted indeed.

Now of course I wouldn't want to be a downer to those who are still reading this. But some great times have come from posting on the forums here, and when I finally decided to start posting blogs. I still remember my first one. But it wasn't the joy of posting my thoughts onto an internet medium, but mostly the people I became friends with, and those who wanted to be friends with me. It was bizarre. People actually treated me with more respect here than..hell anywhere else. Yeah I know, typical sob story, but sad as it may sound, it's completely true. I've met some awesome people on here, too many to list...But many of which I believe don't blog or post anything anymore...

And why is this? I'll get to that in a minute. I visited GS sooo much these past years. I loved commenting on people's thoughts, posting reviews and just seeing what's new in others lives. Why? Because people on here became like family. An internet family that I've never met in person, but felt a connection to them regardless. More of a family then I've ever had. Except for my brother,who lives 1700 miles from me now with a family of his own, and my grandma,who passed away 2 years ago, I always felt alienated from my relatives. Everyone on here shared a common interest. Maybe that's why. But back to the question I asked at the beginning of this paragraph. Why does it feel like my home has become invaded by foreigners? Why does it feel like the allure this site once had is no longer there? Well, you can blame that on the idiots that changed the site..for the worse. It's enough to put a gun to your head.

It's been beat to death I know. Everyone hates the new layout GS has taken. Non-updating comments to blogs, asinine Facebook and Twitter implementations that are useless, a "Like" button to the comments instead of the tried and true"Thumbs up", no longer being able to post on some forums, since they're "read only", the layout of the comments section, and the list goes on. Why the hate? Why? For me it's two reasons. One, The change wasn't needed nor was it announced prior like most other updates have been in the past. Two, the fact that like everything else, the site wanted to be more mainstream. Let's face it, adding facebook and twitter crap is the epitome of mainstream. The hilarity doesn't end there, these type of implements have been added to games in a move to over-casualise the things we love. This whole debacle has caused many people I followed on here to go dark. The abrasive taste of what this site has done to them was enough to make them leave outright with others slowly migrating elsewhere. It feels like when people you love move away. Far away and you know you'll barely see them, or never see them at all. Basically my entire life coming into fruition via a website. Yes. Add your "forever alone" quips here...

So you see why the title makes sense now? Maybe not. I mean i ranted on how crappy this website is now and how people have left to blog elsewhere. Big Deal, right? Heh, well not every aspect of my life I post on here, and for good reason. If I could go back 5 years and have the knowledge I have now....I could turn my life around. I will claim that 2007-08 i was in my prime. A Head full of confidence and optimism which has been replaced with fear, doubt and apathy over the span of five years. Why not change now, one may ask...I guess I have neither the will nor the reason to at this point.I've felt this way far longer than GS' useless update...it has just progressively become worse, like an untreated cancerous lump in someone's body

I'm not happy how this blog turned out just like I'm not happy the course of my life has gone either. I don't know if I will continue to blog, or comment, or post reviews...So many unknowns, to many things to ponder at this point. If there is a moment of bliss, a break from all the misery or that unattainable high point in my life finally reached, I guess I will let you know about it, but for now....