• 30Mar 08

  my new pc

  http://www.newegg.com/Product/Product.aspx?Item=N82E16819115017 cpu

  http://www.newegg.com/Product/Product.aspx?Item=N82E16811144151 case

  http://www.newegg.com/Product/Product.aspx?Item=N82E16800198002 game

  http://www.newegg.com/Product/Product.aspx?Item=N82E16814127333 video card

  http://www.newegg.com/Product/Product.aspx?Item=N82E16813128059 mother board

  http://www.newegg.com/Product/Product.aspx?Item=N82E16829102017 sound card

  http://www.newegg.com/Product/Product.aspx?Item=N82E16817341010 power supply

  http://www.newegg.com/Product/Product.aspx?Item=N82E16836113007 sound system

  http://www.newegg.com/Product/Product.aspx?Item=N82E16824005096 monitor

  http://www.newegg.com/Product/Product.aspx?Item=N82E16820211188 memory

  most men like me would go wild and get drunk and or buy a new car or sleep around. but i can't do any of these because it's not in my nature if anything the gamer and pc side of me says NEED A HOT NEW PC and i dubbed it Soundwave.

  • Posted Mar 30, 2008 8:31 pm GMT
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• 7Jan 08

  whats new in 08! and what will never change

  For those of you who know or don't know alot has happen to me last year some good some bad.My grandmother had a tumor removed from her head and also i'm a uncle now. and a ton of other things i've tried real hard to help some of my friends who are young and more my age get on the right path in life. meaning some of them have made the step to go to college and plan out there futures so i said to myself "self why the h3ll don't you do it to go back to college?" so i now i'm in one of the best colleges in NYC for law yup thats right i'm in John Jay pretty isn't it lol O_O trust me it took alot of work to get into this college man the things i went through to get here. 1st i applied to it around august 7th but i didn't get accepted till november 17th (why the long fr3aking wait for!) but no that wasn't the half of it i then was forced to do a orietation which was a waste of time and scary. (i'll explain that part in a little bit why it was scary) So after i did that i had to register online and then i found out i was limited to 5 cl@sses and they want me to take cl@sses for preparation for what they call a CPE test so i have to take those cl@sses plus other cl@sses for my major which by the way is International Criminal Justice. ok fine i got my cl@sses. btw at this time it's around dec ok i got my cl@ssesnow guess what i wanted to know if i got any book money or whenc an i get the books which they told me i have to wait 2 weeks before the semister starts which for me i start jan 28th. so today i finally found out i'm get $350 dollars for books and $1240as a refund check. also i went and made a visit to the registar office and asked about being able to take a 6th or 7th cl@sses and guess what i got it so i got my 6th cl@ss so instead of me finishing in 2 and somewhat years i'll be done but 2 years or less. also i was thin king of studying abroad for a few semisters.

  (ok the scary part)

  idk if anyone here is a big DEATH NOTE fan like me because that anime was freaking great. If anyone remembers episode 11 or 10 i think it is? that my man light went in a suit and tie to his college orietation and as he did his speech and he went to sit down he met L and who sat next to him and told him he was L. ok i went to my orietation in a suit and tie and i was sitting out in the front of the whole thing there was about 40-60 ppl there so ok in that whole row there was only me and a guy skinny guy who offered me some cookies (which i don't know this guy from a hole in the wall. and if you remember L loves sweets) ok i say no and through the whole night he was looking at me so i pay no mind to him. i get home head to myspace boom guess what i get a message from L who knows me by name.......now thats freaky.

  (what else is new)

  well now that i got into college and told you already of my new favorite anime i'm thinking real hard about buying a psp to mod it or a 360 to flash it since i know mod it will let microsoft know that you did it and they bump you off from XBL. so if you flash the system that can't happen. so i'm thinking about getting either one since with psp i can flash or mod it and put emulators, any animes i want, and now put windows vista. what more do you want. also i bought myself a new cell for my birthday last year yup that right i bought me this sexy thing. i said to myself if i'm going to be a lawyer or work for the FBI,CIA,INTERPOL,US CUSTOMS,UNITED NATIONS (yup with the degree i'm getting i'll be able to get a job with these types of places) i need a sexy beast phone to show my professionalism. other thing thats new is that i grew my hair longer i might give it more time if it snows i might braid my hair. oh yeah remeber i said i was a uncle heres a pic of mylil sister's son and this my grandmother who had the tumor holding him.

  (what else can be new!!!!!)

  i never thought in my life i live to see the day when a woman trying to be president of the United States and a african american both trying to be president at the sametime Barack Obama yup but you know whats the sad part that white people no matter what will not let any of these 2 become president no matter how many votes they get it won't happen as much i would like to see hilary win because i want to see a woman in office for once.

  (now that which will never change)

  IGNORANCE AND STUPIDITY!!!!!!

  • Posted Jan 7, 2008 10:18 pm GMT
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• 10Jul 07

  Moments

  There are moments in peoples lives when one can feel they regret not doing something small to change what maybe the greatest possible experience or one time they can freeze and absorb let that brief moment spread what maybe the most important part of their lives. there are so many i wished i could go back and experienced differently like one i remember i and my beloved ex-girlfriend once were in this restaurant and i remember ordering steak or was it ribs with fries and soda and she ordered pasta i think and she wanted to order wine or some type liquor and i told her i didn't want her drinking because i didn't what our experience being with each other to be influenced but this not the moment i wished to have changed because i didn't say as a form of control no i stated it as a form of concern or perhaps for us to enjoy one other and let that be our drug. anyways no there was this moment when she got her food and i told her that i dislike pasta and cheese but she didn't believe it and we smiled about it and she wanted me to try it and dip her fork into the pasta and at this moment which i could've done the most romantic thing and just eat the pasta enjoy this critcal part of one of the happinest moments of my life. but no i didn't stood there saying no because the smell and how it look disgust me.

  now i was the type of person who waited his whole life for death for reasons that i loath my very existence because i came from horrible family tree and even worse the one thing i wanted was death and was denied even that even though i was expected to have died at the age of 1 or 10 and here i am at the age of 28 now but during the time as i was hoping for death i wished for love mostly because i believed in the power of love more then the power of god also i said if i was supposed to die fine but i wanted to be experiencing love before anything.for years i search yerned for it, seeking for one to love me for me and not for how i looked how much or little i made in life but that the value of my life meant more to that person. More then any of superfical traits that people in these day of age have become enslaved to. and who would've thought i would find such a rare woman she was everything i wanted kind, a bit naive, very well spoken and was very well as geeky person as i am. but what attracted me the most of this brilliant womanwashow positve she was because she understood me and saw great things in me even i never saw it. ironicly i who would've never thought that this woman would be my savior of my soul and it took five little words to do it "I Don't Love You Anymore." now one might say what how did that make things better for you? well it gave me the power to go where i never taught i'll go i went to "God" who i once loath but not only him no i loath also lusfer and jesus because i was a beiiever in free will and i didn't want to be control by god or the devil because if they controlled what i've done or know already where i would end up then is my willreally free?

  but i did searched for god's help not only to help me become the man this woman wanted but to be the man i wanted to be because i want my life to be happy and i guess in a way i wanted to not end my life but wanted to get to the end of my life for like that i would know what my purpose was and now i do but not only for this woman but for the life i want to build with her i don't her to see me as this pittfull @$$hole as elegantly as she put it.no i want her to see me for the new enlighten person i became because of her and not for the person i was i would like her to see me through different eyes but sense that i am that person she onced loved. eventhough i knew i was the man she loved and cared for i just wasn't spiritually or mentally ready to embrace her and in the endwhat i loved and cherished about her i destroyed by being that who i was a dark person who still had the state of mind of death coming but couldn't see what was in front of him. not only love but life the type of life he yarned for his whole life. a woman who can connect with him in a level then anyone could.

  life is about moments one's we can change and one's we regret and even though i have moments i wished i can change because i wanted to change them to make them happier moments and the unhappy moments i don't want to change because they made me stronger.i've became stronger mentally and spiritually but emotionally i'm still weak because even though i lost this woman this great savior of mine i still wished she'll let me try to show her that i've changed and let me show her and let me show her the gift that she enbedded in me the power of second chances because if god can forgive me why can't she? even though she has forgive mefor the sadness i've enflicked upon her but i want her to forgive me for not seeing what was in front of me love that was greater then anything possible that this world couldve seen i'm sorry for me being too late for noticing this fact but if her heart can try to see what we had and remember it well then i'll be here waiting and showing her how much stronger and wiser i can become if shes willing to see it. to my saint sonji goodman thank you for saving my soul hoping you doing ok. because eventhough my heart is weak is because i am still a true believer in the power of love and although i have god's wisdom and my strong sense of justice and freedom if you remember my last blog without love your love i have no home because you my dear are they only family i need hope we can try to ament for our mistakes and try to start anew as friends. although i'm not saying i'm perfect or that calming you still have feelings for me no what i'm trying to say is that i would like just talk and hope we can get past what happen because those things we can't change but we can try to change what we learned about each other felt about each other and since we been apart for so long we might be able to share our new experiences apart and reflect it back to each other and see if we can grow together as we did before knowing things new things about us that we never knew was there.

  • Posted Jul 10, 2007 11:53 pm GMT
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