All About applesxc47
Metal is my religion and Judas is my Priest
Just dropping in again. Nothing much has changed with my life, I'm still hanging around here.
I just want to drop this. I like writing and I want to see if I'm any good, so feel free to make assessments, just be nice because I'm a little girl inside
Aside from that, not much has changed. My life is pretty stable right now and I love it.
My girlfriend and I nearly broke up a couple of nights ago, it's okay now, but the story also has me accidentally locking myself out of the house at around 11:30, so I'll fill you in.
We've been together for a bit longer than 7 months, and I said something very, very stupid when we were messaging through Facebook. I said that there were certain benefits to being single, it didn't go down well. She (understandably) freaked out and lost her shlt, she told me she felt like she wasted more than half a year and she felt used, and I was on the defensive in this conversation over Facebook for about an hour and a half, but it didn't seem like it was working.
At about 11, I could tell that things definitely weren't going my way, and that if I didn't do something drastic, that was it, so I rang her mobile from our house's portable phone, then I walked outside so I wouldn't wake up my family. I said everything that I felt all at once, I was desperate and I was scared. I've never said everything before. I said some stuff that I've said before, but never all at the same time. She was crying, and I was on the verge of tears, she kept trying to interrupt me but I didn't let her get a word in, because I knew that if I did that then she'd probably end it then and there. I told her about my hopes for the future, and how much I loved her and that we've come so far to end up where we are, and that she shouldn't discredit 7 months on the account of me saying something stupid. She asked if she could discredit the day, and I said sure, whatever you have to do. I could tell that it was getting better, she wasn't crying anymore, as far as I knew, so I made her laugh. I said 'Why do you think I sit on a train for 5 hours to be in Sale (her town)? I don't exactly go there for the great community and the thriving business district', I think that saved it more than anything, she laughed, and the hard part was over.
After about 10 minutes more of casual conversation and joking around, it all subsided, and I went to get back inside, but I realised I'd locked myself outside. I considered climbing in my bedroom window, but I realised I should just ring my brother and tell him to unlock the door from the inside, because I didn't wake up my mum and dad, who I wasn't aware were already awake.
After my brother opened the boor, my dad was standing in the hallway asking 'what the fvck is going on?', to which I replied 'I need to talk about some important shlt with [gf's name here], but it's okay now and I accidentally locked myself out. Then we all went to bed.
Sorry for the wall of text in the middle, but I just thought I should tell you guys, get it off my chest I guess. To be honest, I think this sets apart this relationship and my previous one, because 7 months into my relationship with my ex, I didn't care if we broke up or not, 7 months into this one, and the thought of breaking up had me at the most afraid I've been in my entire life.
Anyway, glad to talk again, gentlemen.
I turned 18 on the 18th of January (yay), and my parents were away the night after for a wedding that was a couple of hours away, so I decided to have 10 or so of my friends over for a get-together, because we hadn't had one during the school holidays. The original plan was to not tell my parents about it, but I decided to tell them after all, because it was better not to go behind their backs, plus, their was no alcohol and most people were leaving at 8 anyway, so it was really nothing spectacular.
Anyway, we pretty much did what we do whenever we hang out, we talked a lot about everything that's been going on, drank a lot of soft drink and ate a lot of chips. I managed to find a musician that a female friend (renowned for disliking anything I listen to) and I both like, Distance. Distance is a Dubstep musician, but it's the style of Dubstep that's more focused on atmosphere than anything else, I'd compare it to Burial, if that's not blasphemy among electro-heads.
The people who were planned to stay for the night were my best mate, his girlfriend and my second best mate. My girlfriend was due to be picked up at 10:30 by her grandmother, so we got to spend some more time together. After everyone else left at 8, our night winded down a lot, and everyone aside from my girlfriend and I decided to watch Machete, which is goddamn awesome by the way. I originally thought it was going to seem a bit forward to ask my girlfriend to go to bed for the first time in about 4 months, until I realised that she was already in bed by the time I got to my room
Anyway, after we finished, we came out and entered the room where everyone was watching Machete, and we were met with a hearty applause and hugs from my mates, my brother and my mate's girlfriend, hence the name of this entry.
When we finished Machete, we all watched The Cabin in the Woods (which is great, in case you were wondering). After that finished, my mate and his girlfriend kind of took over that room for the night, so my other mate and my brother refused to set foot in there, and because we were running on nothing but caffeine, we weren't the slightest bit tired, so we went for a walk.
We wandered around outside until about 4 in the morning, and when we got inside we finally slept. I couldn't be bothered closing my curtains of course, so I woke up to the sun glaring into my face at 7 in the morning, which left me with a lovely 3 hours of sleep for the night
From what I hear, everyone had a great time, which is good. That's all I got now.
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