My girlfriend and I nearly broke up a couple of nights ago, it's okay now, but the story also has me accidentally locking myself out of the house at around 11:30, so I'll fill you in.

We've been together for a bit longer than 7 months, and I said something very, very stupid when we were messaging through Facebook. I said that there were certain benefits to being single, it didn't go down well. She (understandably) freaked out and lost her shlt, she told me she felt like she wasted more than half a year and she felt used, and I was on the defensive in this conversation over Facebook for about an hour and a half, but it didn't seem like it was working.

At about 11, I could tell that things definitely weren't going my way, and that if I didn't do something drastic, that was it, so I rang her mobile from our house's portable phone, then I walked outside so I wouldn't wake up my family. I said everything that I felt all at once, I was desperate and I was scared. I've never said everything before. I said some stuff that I've said before, but never all at the same time. She was crying, and I was on the verge of tears, she kept trying to interrupt me but I didn't let her get a word in, because I knew that if I did that then she'd probably end it then and there. I told her about my hopes for the future, and how much I loved her and that we've come so far to end up where we are, and that she shouldn't discredit 7 months on the account of me saying something stupid. She asked if she could discredit the day, and I said sure, whatever you have to do. I could tell that it was getting better, she wasn't crying anymore, as far as I knew, so I made her laugh. I said 'Why do you think I sit on a train for 5 hours to be in Sale (her town)? I don't exactly go there for the great community and the thriving business district', I think that saved it more than anything, she laughed, and the hard part was over.

After about 10 minutes more of casual conversation and joking around, it all subsided, and I went to get back inside, but I realised I'd locked myself outside. I considered climbing in my bedroom window, but I realised I should just ring my brother and tell him to unlock the door from the inside, because I didn't wake up my mum and dad, who I wasn't aware were already awake.

After my brother opened the boor, my dad was standing in the hallway asking 'what the fvck is going on?', to which I replied 'I need to talk about some important shlt with [gf's name here], but it's okay now and I accidentally locked myself out. Then we all went to bed.

Sorry for the wall of text in the middle, but I just thought I should tell you guys, get it off my chest I guess. To be honest, I think this sets apart this relationship and my previous one, because 7 months into my relationship with my ex, I didn't care if we broke up or not, 7 months into this one, and the thought of breaking up had me at the most afraid I've been in my entire life.

Anyway, glad to talk again, gentlemen.