• 21Oct 09

  Androgynous Androgyny

  So that there's no confusion. I'm a boy/male/gentleman/man/lad/fellow/XY Chromosome bearing human being.

  Throughout my life I've gotten comments, whether observatory or derogatory, about my "soft" features.

  I've even been confused for a female before. Told by one individual that they could only ever think of me as a female.

  Okay.

  Now I'm in college. Off on my own. Been so for a while now. Nothing new. Now I'm experiencing a different side of what it means to look like me.

  People see my features and assume I'm homosexual. Well......that part isn't new. That started in 4th Grade.

  Even in Primary School, kids, specifically other boys, would ridicule me for my naturally curly eye lashes. They'd say I went home to curl them like a girl and what have you.

  I've gotten comments about my lips. About how pink they look. How red they look. How much they resemble a certain part of the female anatomy.

  I've been told I have girl hands. (Really? That's a new one)

  So now I'm getting hit on by boys........young men.........old men.......homeless men............

  Anonymously and in person.

  I've been accosted twice on the streets of my college campus by these older guys. Demanding I give them my number with their Cell Phone extended. Hovering around me as I pack up my vehicle to leave. Asking me about where I live. Complimenting about my eyes. Telling me I look like a super model. Asking if I'm coming back. Attempting to hop into my car to use a cigarette lighter that's not even there. Begging me to come back as I'm leaving. Still there when I get back. Leaning inside passenger side window of my car as I try to pull off.

  Asking me if I'm "interesting in being with a nigg@."

  I'm getting facebooked anonymously now by people from my college. They obviously know me. I have no idea who they are. They ask me questions.......compliment me........make statements........

  Of course I ignore. I don't want to be rude.......I don't want to give the wrong idea........

  I'm naive so my initial response to such compliments is to say, "thank you", and be done with it. It occurred to me that giving the circumstances, that might not be the best thing. So yeah......I ignore.......as a result......periodically through the years here, I get a check up from the select few individuals who are open about their status, don't care if I know, and continue to message me (in addition to the countless numbers who do so anonymously).

  Is ignoring them still leading them on? I don't know..........

  It's all rather interesting.......I don't lose sleep over any of this. I'm just trying to imagine how it's going to be once I'm officially out on my own in the real world. College is just a miniscule bubble society that's a lesser iteration of what is to come.

  Hope I'm ready.

  • Posted Oct 21, 2009 5:35 pm GMT
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• 21Oct 09

  OWLCITY's "Fireflies" #1 On iTunes!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

  It's kind of surreal when you witness an unknown artist who has been way in the background for years just emerge out of nowhere and make it big.

  I never get use to it.

  So excited. And I'm wondering how long this has been because I don't check up on my iTunes Charts regularly but just so happen to check it today.

  Either way......good stuff!

  

  I mean, he beat out Miley Cyrus and bumped her frisky cheeks off the top.

  The Black Eyed Peas.....Britney Spears..........you name 'em, he beat 'em.

  Amazing.

  • Posted Oct 21, 2009 1:21 pm GMT
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• 20Oct 09

  When Life Gets Hard, You Whine About It Until Someone Makes The Lemonade For You

  This whole semester I've had this huge Dramaturgy Project hanging over my head, stressing me out that I kept procrastinating over.

  It's due today at 5:30pm.

  Saturday I spent the entire day reading the play. I finished!

  Sunday Night into Monday morning I completed over half of the assignment.

  Monday night into Tuesday morning I completed the second half of the assignment, including the extra credit and completed it sometime pass 6am this morning!

  Phew! Load off my shoulders right? No.

  Found out I have another exam next Monday and just received a take home exam from another course due in 2 days.

  You may be thinking the take home exam isn't anything to stress over but take home exams tend to be take home for a reason. Because they're super duper tough!

  I feel like I should be able to breath after completing the Dramaturgy and I was looking forward to being able to do so, but I can't.

  Anyway, the Dramaturgy ended up being about 40 pages long. She didn't give us a limit we had to fulfill. The assignment was kind of loose ended and presented to us in a rather sloppy manner.

  Not to mention that while we were already assigned this Dramaturgy assignment, she also assigned us a new project where we practically do the same thing, but instead of doing it on a play, it's on a playwright instead and it'll be in presentation form to the entire ****and we do it in groups.

  She doesn't want us to read any presentations and she doesn't want us to use Power Point.

  Ummmm........how in the heck do you expect us to present anything?! And it has to be 30 minutes long? Say what?

  I guess we're going to have to come with a lot of video clips to show because I can't really think of any other way to tell an audience about something without speaking or having them read it themselves.

  Whatever.

  If I was still a teenager, I guess this is where I'd threaten to kill myself for attention, but unfortunately I don't have that mental handicap to fall back on. So while teenagers are off dying, I get the short end of the stick.

  *Sigh*

  Awww Cannon Balls.....

  Me: Hey You Pikachu. How about making me some Lemonade?

  Pikachu: Okay!

  Me: I have some lemons over here.

  Pikachu: Good. I love squeezing your lemons!

  Me: Here you go. Squeeze my lemons.

  Pikachu: I love making lemonade.

  Me: Hey! What are you doing?

  Pikachu:

  Pikachu: Well I was just tasting it to make sure it was turning out right.

  Me: How does it taste?

  Pikachu: Salty.

  Me: Ummm.......taste it some more.......

  

  • Posted Oct 20, 2009 1:11 pm GMT
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