BAH HUMBUG!

So yah. I gotta check in more often. But I arrive with good excuses!

I finally found and decided on a condo to purchase and closing was on June 30. The month before that was spent jumping through hoops of paperwork and arranging movers and carpet cleaners, etc. I moved in that day and I'm fairly settled at this point but it doesnt quite feel like "home" yet. Its weird having so much space after living in a studio apartment for 4 years and the idea that I "own" the place.

In addition to settling in, I've been spending much of my spare time playing WoT (world of tanks). Its free and very addicting! (BTW, the alienware survived the move.) My name on there is the same and I can be found in the 13TH2 clan.

Other than that, July is hell month at work as everyone is taking time off and the schedule is more haywire than usual. Luckily I am one of the people taking vacation and as of 8pm Thursday I will be free for about 9 days!

I have made advancements quitting the cigarettes. I'm down to a pack a week instead of 2+ packs a day. I'm now a "vaper" and smoke digital (e-cigarettes). I also opted to follow the Dr's suggestion and take welbutrin to help quit. (Not to mention some xanax for when I feel like Im going to blow up)

I've also been Zilla free for quite a few months but get the occasional text (just blocked her number again) and a surprise stalking visit before I moved.

Thats all for now. Hope everyone is doing well and you are in my thoughts!

xoxoxo

me

I went crazy and bought an alienware....the thing kicks ass.

Spring has sprung, although on Friday this area is due for a few inches of snow. Last hoorah.

Making this a year of CHANGE! Gonna kick those damn cigarettes next month and getting on a health kick. (Found out I have high blood pressure last week) Guess I gotta quit salt, (OMG now that I'm watching sodium levels I see how much is really in what I've been eating) excercise, (Great excuse to buy the Wii and the Fit package, yay!) and avoid stress...which has led me to finally tell the drama queens I hang with that I will no longer do so. (FREEDOM!!) It was getting old and so am I.

Blah dee blah. Time to sniff around and see what I've been missing around this place.

Cheers!

YEP, the more they stay the same. AHHHHH contradictions!!

Hope everyone is doing well. Riding the wave here. Fell off and swallowed some water a couple times but nothing thats going to keep me from riding it again.

Not ready for summer...unless it rains every day.

Yay....HAPPY ST PATTIES!

A few friends finally convinced me to make a Facebook account to play games so I whipped together an account for just that. (I am not interested in socializing there)

I find that I am really addicted to Mafia Wars...sooooo if you are interested please add me on that game or whatever. My email there is passingalteration@gmail.com

Thanks and hope to see you thugs there! 8)

Pigs must be flying and hell must be freezing. I bought a couple new games today! With the recent reformat of my computer and going through the pains of getting that back in order, I dragged myself to Wally World determined to buy something for my poor old PS2. So...without further delay...I bought Sonic Unleashed and Fishermans Bass Club. I really didnt care for the selection there, I was looking for something different, and these fit my price range rather nicely. So Im actually happy with my choices (and the fairly good scores they got on GS). Hopefully they live up to my expectations.

So despite my rather queasy feeling this morning from either a) to many energy drinks b) the onset of cancer or c) anxiety about everything I have to do on my upcoming days off...I'm going to unwrap these puppies and put off laundry for another day. (If I can get off of Gamespot. )

In other news...well, I feel like a mess lately. More at 11.

*goes to commercial break*

edit: now I sorta wished I got a racing game instead.

"All that we are is the result of what we thave thought. It is founded on our thoughts. It is made up of our thoughts. If one speaks or acts with a pure thought, happiness follows one like a shadow that never leaves."

- Dalma Pada.

Part of Dr Dyers thing here. Not a typical self help typa guy.

Every man has got a hobby,
Every poet has some fault,
Every sweet contains its bitter,
Every fresh thing has its salt.

Every mountain has a valley,
Every valley has a hill,
Every ravine is a river,
Every river is a rill.

Every fool has got some wisdom,
Every wise man is a fool,
Every scholar is a block-head,
Every dunce has been to school.

Every bad man is a good man,
Every fat man is not stout,
Every good man is a bad man
But 'tis hard to find him out.

Every strong man is a weak man,
You may doubt it as you please,
Every well man is a sick man,
Every doctor has disease.

-- George Reginald Margetson 1910

....express the things I feel tonight.

"She should have died hereafter;
There would have been a time for such a word.
To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow,
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day,
To the last syllable of recorded time;
And all our yesterdays have lighted fools
The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!
Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage
And then is heard no more. It is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury
Signifying nothing." — Macbeth (Act 5, Scene 5,)

..writing a blog each day of my vacation. Back to the same ole schtuff now. (Which includes the usual drama's)

Hmmm, what to say, what to say.

Excuse me I have to sneeze.

Recent headlines:

• Been raining allot here and running about 15 degrees cooler than usual. Nice sleeping weather.
• Just lostmajor money my company stock plan. They are forcing us to sell it back (at current market value) because of a merger, which really sucks. Bought for 25 bucks, selling for 4.50 a share. Not cool.
• Zilla is in the cage at the moment, but we know that wont last forever.
• I have been getting mystery stains on my rug lately and it has been making me paranoid. I just had the rugs cleaned a few weeks ago too, dammit.
• Waiting impatiently for Friday, or for the next time I can just chill out and play video games alone.

Now back to our regularly scheduled program.

Okay now that I have more time on my hands I think I can manage blogs with more content than nonsense. I've tried to write this a million times trying to capture how I feel by including other details, but I just can't focus enough to see it through without over analyzing and trying to put things in a precise way.

It was a good day. Weather was ideal. Had a good visit with parents and luckily a friend came along. Had a nice country drive on the way home, saw some old haunts, nature and made some simple stops along the way that made the difference. Feels great to be at home finally and rather naturally relaxed. Thought I wanted to go out and keep it going, but a shower felt great and the jammies even better.

Going to be an early night and it feels good to be "free", though with darkness approaching I must stand gaurd. Its been a long time since I've had a "normal" day and it makes me realise just how long its been and how far off course I have been taken, in some respects.

Took a pee stop in the country and there was an old cemetery cira 1850's across the road. Found this headstone somewhat interesting. Some of you may catch the reference.

Rain forecasted the next few days....spring cleaning time me thinks. Trying to get some constructive things done before I reach the weekend and back to workland middle of next week.

Until next time...may the Force be with you.

The puzzle or the pieces?

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I have so much to say but can spit it out. The only thing I can say right now is thank you, friends...for bearing with me.

James, you are the best.

I figured out some cosmic purposes, some of which I knew before but forgot.

You CAN find diamonds in coal....right?! Sometimes you gotta go through allot of coal to get to the most valuable ones.

Unrleated to the diamond thing, Im not ****ing, the tv sent me a vibe again tonight...tv promotion for next show said "Kathys back.....and she's out for blood". No, I am not imaging things. Weird ****.

angry.

...think its the first time it ever solved a problem for me! YAY!