• 9Oct 08

  The Game

  Ive been waiting to break free,

  Now that Ive spawned we will see

  The flash from the barrel

  The boom from my gun

  Who would have thought killing axis could be so fun?

  Duck and wave

  Try not to be seen

  I died.

  Red.

  Just felt like writing a poem about Call of Duty. Whatcha think?

  • Posted Oct 9, 2008 6:05 am GMT
  • Category: Writing
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• 7Oct 08

  The elusive Hellcat!

  Well Hi there! Long time no post, huh?

  Well I have been busy... sorta. I have been trying a new routine of trying to keep my kids pacified and happy while trying to get them to learn more. My oldest is really doing great, learning more and everything.. my youngest... well im still trying to get her to talk. She says a few words but sometimes she just doesnt want to work with me. Its frustrating, but she will learn one day. I have hope.

  I last posted about my marriage. We are still together so I guess... However, I still dont go anywhere and I guess Im depressed or something cause it takes a lot for me to leave the house now. I started making him go grocery shopping now, and hes gotta beg me to go to the px if we need something inbetween commisary trips. I kind of tribute that to ... well several things I guess. I am depressed, theres no questioning that. My self esteem is pretty much non-exhistant, and my anxiety has gone through the roof it seems (i have had mild social anxiety for a while but lately its exploded. Probably cause my self esteem and confidence hit.) It kinda started right after my last grandparent (my gramma) died a few months ago, and I wasnt able to go to the funeral. I got very depressed about that and cried for a few days. I loved my gramma a lot, but we simply did not have the funds to send me to see her off to heaven, so its not really anyones fault, but still hurts.

  Other then that, have been just playing WoW, tho im getting bored with it, and some of the people i play with have taken a turn for the weird. All well.

  I want a puppy. An english bulldog or a yorkie. Preferably the bulldog.

  That is all.

  • Posted Oct 7, 2008 8:09 am GMT
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• 17May 08

  Depression... I hate depression.

  Well, im definatly depressed. Theres just so much garbage going on.. and I have no outlet cept here... you poor poor souls. Guess I just need to vent about today. Husband loves to play paintball right? So do i. His friends call him up and ask him to go play and of course hes runnin for his guns. Problem? Whats the problem? Well I cant go, cause I gotta watch the kids cause he wont let anyone else watch them. So basically this means I have to stay home all the time with them unless he stays home with them, or if we go out as a family. But heres the other problem... i have no friends here. And its mighty hard to make friends when you cant go out. But the other problem is, i really love paintball. Probably just as much as he does. I dunno.. just feels unfair, and im jealous cause he gets to go play while i have to be the babysitter. *Sighs*.
  • Posted May 17, 2008 1:12 pm GMT
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